Inside my Head

Posted in Uncategorized on October 3, 2008 by crispy001

There’s a storm inside my head, it’s been brewing way too long. Thoughts like lightning dance and strike as fingertips grow numb. Hold me tighter. Enveloping thunder echoes in my ears, so loud, can’t you hear it? Powdery flakes fall from the heavens, please help me see through this absent blindness. Rattled beasts howl in this tempest, sooner or later their claws will break free from this prison. There’s none to blame but myself, a simple thing neglected beyond return. Consumed by this vortex, please help me still these winds. I’ve lost control of myself.

Only I can be my true undoing.

-A sleep deprived, headache laden, God.

TRUSTcompany & Powerman 5000

Posted in Uncategorized on September 29, 2008 by crispy001

TRUSTcompany. Interesting band I kind-of-sort-of started listening to recently and they got this cool music video. I wish I had that power (you’ll see)!

Powerman 5000 is a crazy band, the lead singer is Rob Zombie’s brother….so yeah….you can expect some freaky stuff from that. They have quite a few music videos, the majority of their songs are industrial metal type.

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Posted in Uncategorized on September 26, 2008 by crispy001

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A Not So Short Story

Posted in Uncategorized on September 23, 2008 by crispy001

Had to write this stupid 2 page ’short’ story for english. I hope he dies. Guest starring Teresa and Eddie.

It was dark and silent in the maze of hedges.  Teresa paused for a moment, her rapid heartbeat disrupting the otherwise tranquil scene.  A gentle breeze carried her dark hair faintly; up above, the clouds parted to reveal a blue tinged moon.  The night protected her, yet it also brought her terror.  She had been running from him.  Only a few hours before, everything had become so strange…

 

                The elaborate grandfather clock chimed 1 a.m. as Teresa awoke from a dreamless sleep.  She looked around and thought to herself, “Wait…this isn’t my house………who’s is it?”  As she finished her thought, she felt another’s presence in the heavily furnished chamber.  Eyes were upon her, but she could not see in the blackness of the room.  She withdrew her cell phone from her pant’s pocket.  A simple press of a button formed a rather handy flashlight.  However, after only a few seconds of blessed light, the phone’s batteries failed.  A chill overtook the room as a lone voice echoed a quiet cackle.  “I’ve been watching you Teresa…..I’ve been watching you for quite some time…,” came a raspy male voice.  She panicked.  Teresa cared little for this mysterious man’s identity as long as she could escape.  Scrambling out of bed, she ran to the corner of the room.  Her eyes had still not adjusted to the dark, she felt hopeless, soon she would be the victim of whatever creature was toying with her.  As she prepared for her final moments, Teresa found a small lever on the side of the grandfather clock.  She grasped it firmly and pulled.  She was startled as the entire clock slid forward.  The same grandfather clock that had brought her into this nightmare happened to conceal a chute.  Without thinking, she held herself tightly and plunged into the shadowy opening.

 

                She fell on something soft yet smooth.  A terrible odor hung about the room as she began to explore her new prison.  Lit candles lined the upper portion of the room, but she could not reach them.  As she felt the stone brickwork walls, she found a dense wood like object. “Great,” she thought, “Now I can reach a candle.”  She stuck the wood stick high in the air and pushed one end into a candle.  To Teresa’s amazement, the wooden stick was not brown or black but more of a white, dull gray color.  As she tried to prod a candle out of its holder, the end of the stick suddenly caught fire.  She lowered her torch and investigated.  “Strange, there’s some sort of liquid at the end of this keeping it lit…,” she pondered.  Further investigation brought another question.  This clearly isn’t wood, so what is it?  Teresa turned to face the rest of the room.  Horrified, she screamed.  Her soft landing had been facilitated by a number of rotting corpses.  Her torch was in fact a bone covered in dry blood.

 

                However, as she shrieked her pursuer became aware of her hidden location.  He let loose a cry of his own.  The sharpness of the screech tore through the air and deafened her ears.  She had to escape.  Even though her torch was beyond grotesque, Teresa began to ram herself against the iron clad door at the side of the room.  As she futilely attempted to force the door open, her assailant descended into the room.

“I see you have met my family,” remarked the figure.

“Who are you and why are you doing this to me!?” Teresa shouted between fearful gasps.

As the darkened outline floated closer, Teresa’s torch flickered and gave out.  She caught little more than a glimpse of his dreadful visage.

“You see, I am a connoisseur of sorts, I have watched you as you’ve matured, ripened, if you will.  And now it is time for the harvest.  I shall dine on the finest of drinks tonight.  You…,” stated the obscure attacker.

“WHAT ARE YOU!? A VAMPIRE?!” screamed Teresa.

After a momentary pause and a sinister chuckle, the figure replied, “No………I’m Eddie.”  Teresa could take no more.  She kicked and clawed at the solid door while screaming and shouting at the now named abductor, Eddie.  Eddie advanced quickly with a huntsman’s precision.  In her blind fear, Teresa managed to lift the simple deadbolt that had held the door shut.  As soon as she reached the other side of the door, she slammed it shut and wedged the bone torch in the lock mechanism.  Even though she couldn’t see where she was going, Teresa sprinted through the damp narrow tunnel, hoping for an exit.  Behind her, Eddie let loose a deafening roar and transformed into a black mist.  He seeped through the cracks as his wispy form accelerated down the passageway.  At the other end, Teresa burst through the cellar doors into a dew laden maze of hedges.  She continued to run without any direction, soon she was lost.  No longer could she hear Eddie’s hisses and curses as he followed her.  She finally thought she may have escaped the blood-crazed hunter.

 

                In these few moments of calmness, Teresa reviewed her situation.  How could she, a girl of 17 years, already be attacked by such a beast?  Surely vampires could not exist, and she was only having a nightmare.  Yet everything had felt so real, Eddie’s presence was enough to turn her warm heart cold.  Could it really be?  Soon Teresa remembered her lover.  How could she have forgotten Thanh?  Was this some sort of trick he was playing on her?  Halloween was approaching soon, but this was taken much too far.  Thoughts of being safe in his strong arms were interrupted shortly thereafter by a flutter of wings.  “Oh no,” she thought, “He followed me outside!”  The hedge rustled, she turned, expecting to face Eddie.  The bushes behind her rustled now, she kept turning, but always the noise was behind her.

“STOP PLAYING WITH ME! COME OUT AND FACE ME COWARD!” challenged Teresa.  Her wish became Eddie’s command when she heard his piercing whisper in her ear, “Come child, I will reap your soul tonight.  I will never let you go…”  However, Teresa knew her challenge would prompt Eddie to reveal himself.  She had been ready for his arrival.  In her dress Teresa had concealed a large wooden stake from the cellar door.  She thrust behind her, but there was no scream.  She turned to face Eddie, and she witnessed a sight no mortal should ever see.  Shards of ice began to protrude from Eddie’s fatal wound, rapidly covering his body.  His form crumpled and solidified.  Just before his existence ended, he uttered one final word, “…perfect…”  A warm wind came and Eddie’s form shattered.  The ice melted abnormally fast into a purple smoke.  “At last it’s over,” thought Teresa, “Now I can finally find out where I am and get out over here…back to Thanh’s soothing arms…”  As she began to find her way out of the maze, she began to consider the vampire’s last words.  Why would his last words be “perfect?”  She felt a tinge of pain just below her neck.  Teresa parted her hair and investigated with her fingers.  There was…something cold and wet on her.  She drew her fingers to her face.  Her sanguine essence covered her hand as it dripped its way down her arm.  “This can’t be,” she thought, “Now…I’m just like…him…”  In the distance, a wail was heard such that even the crows took flight.  Even so, she could think of nothing but her dearest love…Thanh.

-God

A Thrilling Time is in your Immediate Future

Posted in Uncategorized on September 16, 2008 by crispy001

The Important Things in Life

Posted in Uncategorized on September 13, 2008 by crispy001

 

A broad topic. Real broad. How to simplify? I can’t tell you what this is but I can tell you what this isn’t. This isn’t a list, this isn’t an explanation, this is a truth. (What’d you know I did tell you what it is)

In a world full of electronic gadgetry, ephemeral fads, gossip and work the important things in life are often hidden if not forgotten by most. That’s not to say everyone’s shallow or anything like that though… Simple fact is, people are often too busy to do the things they want to do. Sure you might get to go shopping for that pair of shoes you were looking at, but is that really what you wanted most? Mmmm probably not. What about that party with friends? No? Not so much fun either? People nowdays take the easy route on their own happiness. Why would you want to cheat yourself?

When you see something you really want, go get it. It’s a terrible thing when people settle for less than they want either out of lack of initiative or lack of confidence. There’s a point everyone should reach at some point where you say, “Hey, I want < _______ >, it’s about time I do something about it”. Fact is, sometime s it never comes. Why? I don’t know, go ask others. Perhaps the most important thing in life is drive. You’ll go a lot farther in life with the determination to accomplish whatever you put your mind to; regardless of what it is. Simply put: do what YOU want. Don’t regret, don’t hold back, don’t plot, just do. It’s better to work towards failure than to watch and do nothing.

 That brings us to the second most important thing in life. Dreams. Not in the literal sense, no, but more in the realm of goals. Note the placement though. It is more important to have determination than it is to have a goal for said determination. Determination will carry you forever. A goal will stop at victory or failure. Don’t let dreams fool you though. They’ll taunt you. They’ll haunt you. They’ll show you what you want and take it all away. Expectations bring nothing but despair. Aim low if you must.

How does that apply to the world? Depression is primarily associated with a lack of purpose or achievement in the individual. It’s most common in those who, quite simply, do nothing. Nothing does not mean sit at home and stare at the wall. Nothing means doing nothing they want to do. The kid that sits and watches tv all day might like watching tv but even that child knows the tv is empty. There are things that kid would rather do than watch tv. Such as? Hell I don’t know, ask the kid. If people were more inclined to take time to do the things they wanted to do the world would be a much happier and psychologically healthier place.

How does that effect you? Take it any way you want it. Think. Do you really do what you want? Do you spend your days thinking of what the future holds or what the past held? Drag yourself into the present and get a move on. Thinking does nothing. It’s a tool not a crutch.

How does that effect me? I’d be a hypocrit to not follow my own ramblings. As a person, I consider myself happy. The particular time doesn’t really matter either. Something bad just happen? Oh well, better make the best of it. I’m always striving to achieve something. Many times I don’t even know what that something is. But I sure as hell know I’ll find out eventually, and all along the way, I’ll have quite an adventure.

The painting at the top is entitled “Carpe Diem”. Latin for “Seize the Day”.

–Over and out

i r smert i go 2 skool

Posted in Uncategorized on August 31, 2008 by crispy001

Lovely schedule most everyone knows by now, 1-5 (lunch time dismissal ftw!) AP Physics, English, Calc AB, Gov/Econ.

Interesting tidbit, my english teacher isn’t teaching anymore and apparently she didn’t tell the school district so I have no english teacher! And the sub is a nutcase, he makes everything really hard then gives us an open note quiz and lets us talk to our tablemates and stuff….weird dude.

Major ego boost on the first day of school too. 4th Period, calculus. Class begins and Mr. Redillas gives us time to meet the person we’re sitting next to. Before I even managed to introduce myself the junior girl (damn smart people) next to me said, “Hi! You’re the guy that drives the red jeep right?” and of course I was all “Yeah, that’s me,” when all the sudden all the girls (I was quite literally surrounded by junior and sophmore (damn smart sophs) girls all going “OMG HE DRIVES THE JEEP!”. Hellllllllllll yeah man! People always ask me if the jeep is my baby, reasons like that are why I say HELL FREAKIN YEAH! Anytime the vehicle brings the chicas in, you know you got a winner.

hmm…. I meant to post about death race about a week ago and I seem to have forgotten. IT WAS AWESOME! Death Race. Death = 100% action. Race = 90% action, 10% plot. Death Race. 95% action, 5% plot. It’s ok, the plot wasn’t too long so you got to the curvacious ladies, tricked out cars, explosions and blood splatters quickly enough. Yeah. DEATH RACE! DEATH RACE! DEATH RACE! (thanh will understand).

I feel like I should post something more meaningful than a summary of happenings but that’ll have to wait until I feel creative enough.

Over and out.

A Warped 18

Posted in Uncategorized on August 16, 2008 by crispy001

WAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSS UPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP! Yeah! Had a wonderful 18th birthday followed closely thereafter by Warped Tour!

List of things you can do at 18: Buy cigarettes (…no…), buy porn (rofl!), buy a gun (shotgun only), sign yourself out of school (I don’t feel like going to school today), go to prison (INTEHBUTT!), participate in the lottery, and get laid (legally).

I’m sure there’s more, I can only think of so many things ya know. Birthday was fun, had a private tour of Eddie’s store and lunch and all. Followed by senior pictures! Damn them D= Had to leave the celebration to take some stupid pictures! Afterwards had family over for cake and ice cream and presents (all the good stuff). Made off with a 500gb harddrive and BF Bad Company for mah 360.

-fast forward to friday-

WARPED TOUR! YEAH! Had to wake up super early (9) to be ready to leave at 10 so we could be there at 11! Anthony and I arrived slightly after 11 and spent a decent half hour waiting in the very large line to get in to shoreline. Once we were inside, we suffered a little confusion over which stage was which and why so many crappy bands were playing on the “big” stage. Turned out all the good bands were playing on the “main” stages out in the parking lot. Glad we figured that out early on! Oh, and FOOD is freakin expensive there! $5-7 for most food and $5 for drinks. That place is built on money! But yeah let’s see… lots of good bands and good shows there, lots of free stuff as well. They gave us free monster drinks (they’re coming out with some sort of new flavor or something?) and it tastes NASTY. I don’t know how anyone could drink that stuff, let alone get addicted to it. And one of the cool parts of the day was I got a picture with Rise Against! They’re so awesome…yeah! The day concluded with a misguided trip home (the sign said 101 south! But we took 85 south!) Turns out it was probably the faster way home anyways.

I look so white compared to them =o

The Death Penalty–Why It’s Good

Posted in Uncategorized on July 26, 2008 by crispy001

Ever wonder why people kill people? Well, I’d say ask the killer, but in the perfect world the murderer would be dead before they reached a jail cell.

Many people argue the death penalty is unethical and ineffective. Little do they know the reality of the situation…

The particular ethics surrounding the death penalty are vague at best. Many argue we are no better than the murderer if we kill them. However, allow me to explore the alternatives to the death penalty: Rehabilitation, and imprisonment. Rehabilitation takes a bad idea with good intentions and trys to make it sound all good. If you take 100 homicidal freaks and train them to be productive members of society, do you really expect 100% recovery? I should hope not. Sure 99 of those prisoners may be released and contribute something useful to the world, but what of the 1 individual that hasn’t changed? All the legal system will have done is wasted MUCH money on making a more pissed off killer. One could argue those that vouch for educating and releasing prisoners cause the deaths of some (though few) individuals.

Putting someone in prison (for life) is expensive. You got to feed them, dress them, entertain them, and control them. All of which equals $$$$. Think of the number of prisoners nationwide and those bills add up, even if prison food is crap, their clothes are old rags, entertainment is anal rape, and control is guards beating them with large blunt objects. Sure you can put the prisoners to work, which is perhaps the best option if imprisonment is indeed the only available option, but there’s limits on that too. What if they refuse to work? They’re not getting released so I’d doubt they care much for whatever you’re going to try and make them do. Better off just having them do nothing.

There’ve been several studies conducted to gauge the usefulness of capital punishment. Most of which prove the death penalty is a very effective crime deterrent. Can you imagine if they made it tougher? Rob a bank? Dead. Attack an old lady? Dead. Crime would disappear! There would be no repeat offenders, and those that dared to commit crimes would most assuredly be very good at them or do so very lightly. Lower crime rates equal less policemen required. Less policemen equals more money. More money is good. Very good.

To simplify things with a metaphor (sort of ): You’re fishing. A man comes and steals your fish. You catch him and he goes away. In the local jail he learns to fish. He fishes but steals your fish again anyways. He goes to jail again, only this time isn’t let go. The only downside is, now all the fish you catch have to go to the man to feed him.

Do you really want your tax dollars keeping alive murderers, rapists, and thieves? ….no, I didn’t think so. Hmm…they should make an offshoot of the most dangerous game. *grin* Lock ‘n load boys!

‘ello

Posted in Uncategorized on July 19, 2008 by crispy001

Here I am sitting near the office to the RV park here at Shasta Lake (located a little farther north than sacramento) with 43 minutes of battery life left! w00ty! Been a long time since I last posted so I’ll have to post some more when I got enough time and my pictures! Status Update: ash is in the air like craaaaaazy. If you thought the air in SJ was ashy and bad, you have noooooo idea how it’s like here. Visibility was about < 5 miles YESTERDAY, today it’s more like < 2. It starts fading after about 100yds and small bits of burnt leaves and pine needles flutters down every minute or two, making for a very disgusting snow type look on anything that doesn’t get cleaned overnight.

Pictures will follow when I get home and grab the camera…I’m too lazy to walk all the way back to the RV and get the camera and then walk all the way back here. OH! I forgot to mention! When I got here there was this old dude here that I started talking to. He use to live in SJ apparently and he worked at the lockheed rocket center right near us! He hates the internet though. So I told him I was looking for news about the fires. *minimizes porn*. just kidding…not…no really…yeah ok just kidding……..nevermind. 

Well…without pictures there isn’t much more I can describe or that I’d go into detail right now. I’ll be in SJ tomorrow (saturday)!!!! But not until lateish like 5. Maybe later. See you all again soon! *devilish grin*